phew~~~

i'm done with my first presentation just few days ago and i tell you, I'm super duper nervous!!!gosh, u can't imagine how scary this is, whereby u have to sing and stand in front of 30+ people!!! and with a song u are not too familiar with... (well not familiar with the song cos i'm abit last minute in preparation..heehee) i sung "dao dai" by jolin.. its considered an easy song cos there aren't many high nodes i need to hit but believe me,when you are on stage, even the easiest song can become super hard to sing. hahah i'm practically trambling through out the song and u can easily hear it from my voice. sigh but so far i don't think i sing too well nor have i out done myself. haha its mediocre so i'm satisfied. now i'll have to prepare my second presentation!! which is the worst!! cos i HAVE to sing the selected songs from the song list... and i can tell you,all of them are not easy!! i'm thinking of singing Memory by Cats... its an opera song... geeZ pls dun be surprised,i chose this because its one of the easiest out of all the songs!!!!! =(

anyway,i'm going to media corp tomorrow.lol surprised?heehee ney i'm not acting lah. just giving my support to a friend of mine from primary school. she is participating in some competition and is now in the finals!! cool right? hahah btw,she is attached..... heehee so dun come and ask me for her number!!! okie ciao~~

bloggy!!!!

sigh,i feel so sianZZ i just can't believe it.i always do stupid stuff but i never know that something like this will really happen to me!!! gosh...this is so embarrassing and since i dun know how to tell everyone else,i'll just type into my bloggie..... well since now a days,usually no one will visit my blog thus i guess it will be alright if i post this?

haiZZ i did lots of stupid stuff...should i rank them?sigh,just can't believe it :(

1)plan to give kh a surprise farewell gift but in the end... sigh, i see the wrong time,thought its only 5pm where else its already 6pm... =( so basically i didnt pass him the gifts.worst,i actaully stayed up all night..... sigh,arn't i lame? haiZZ and all effort just go to waste... i think i'm prepared to be murdered anytime.... lord.. let me disappear into thin air now~~

2) joined music of voice and thus is required to sing infront of 30+ people. worst,the song i have to choose from are so damn difficult!!!.haiZZ.... basically this is not all my fault.some asshole contribute to this cos the cajoined me to take this course then in the end, i placed this as my first choice for GE while my friend place it as her second. so gladly, both of us got into the first choice....

3) i spend 2 bloody hours looking for my classroom for my GE, from NIE to NTU, so in the end,i dun dare to go into the class after i found the place......sigh

4) i misread pig tail as pony tail in a game of taboo so to describe ponytail, i said " a hairstyle i usually wear to school" ........... -_-"

5) ..............cant think of any right now... these better stop!!

gosh~~ i still feel sad... bt too tired... guess i'm gonna go sleep now.sigh~~~

hey peeps,


its 6.30 in the morning and someohow i have this urge to pour all my feelings into this blog.can't really get much sleep tonight....dun know why leh,izzit because of the rain at night?which sort of chills me?anyway,wen has left for norway le.sigh, so sad..... maybe its because of the constant meetings and phone chating sessions we had during these 2 months,that's why i have this sense of lost. its like there is always something which constantly make u so damn busy and u r always trying so damn hard to make time for it and then, it just disappeared.... so feel abit lost ba. (opps,did i make it sound like a chore?heehee) well,i dun know leh.... just feel a change ba. Anyway,this is something i predicted so damn long ago lor cos somehow all my chit chat mates are gone. like shenloong, wen, and ym (more of sms mate). heehee sounds like very little hor, but somehow these pple always fill my life leh..... for wen,she always keeps me damn busy with her constant enthusiasm for shopping!!!and sometimes by giving her advice and stuff. And always bugging me to go clubbing!!! for shenloong,sigh, he is always giving me a listening ear. for ym, her constant smsing and other problems she met in her life ba.....

Sometimes,i just feel i'm too immature... after going for IA and knowing everyone is going overseas,i just feel so sad. i can't help by feeling that i'm a runner in a race but i'm just looking at the people who are either running ahead of me or running pass me. this is not jealousy or anything or that sort, just that i finally realised there is this need to grow up, to gain more knowledge, to be more independent and get out of my confort zone...... lol..... this is wat i always tell wen, she is always my eyes and ears, she always come back with so many interesting stuff from overseas and share them with me. Something which thrills me even more is that she will even bring back those little but yet meaningful stuff and share them with me. isn't this sweet? thanxs pal~

Anyway,just a piece of something, why does people always question and go for the "me" word?its like whenever people met with stuff, they will say, why does people treat "ME" this way and get angry? why can't people just think in other people's shoes before reacting?Seriously,i met with this problems too and is usually pissed by myself. maybe its just idealistic for humans to think for others first ba. but i feel that it just make someone an angry person to always think of the "me" word..... :)
btw,i realised a talent i have, that is, i can just forget about sad stuff easily.some people may say this is just a ostrict way of doing things but for me,i feel that its the trick to stay happy in life...wahaahah

i wrote a damn depressing poem before wen leave,....dun know why,just got this urge to write it when i'm taking the mrt to work tat day.... wow~~~ i regret giving her though...cos i really think its a quite sad poem and i scare it'll make her feel even more depressed.... sigh, but anyway,i send it liao,so hope she can interpret the last para and know that i'm trying real hard to turn the poem into something happier.....heehee


Sadness drowns the soul.
should i ever let go?
To try loosen the hold.
and let change run its lawn.

An unwilling grip extends its hand,
as selfishness seize the air,
can you not go?
a thoughtless scream echoed,
making itself known.

A big long pause awaits,
as time roar its way.
minutes tick in speed,
suddenly visible you appeared to me,
back in peace
with a big smile full of teeth!

change is inevitable,
as it always is,
keep me close,
after the day you leave,
come back in peace,
which you must make it be.
bringing back the silly smile,
and the big white teeth!



quite a short one actually,haven thought of the title yet..... =)

hey peeps!!!

damn!!! i just saw all the floodings in my tag box!!!sigh,sorry lah,just that i have out grown all the blogging thingy.... heehee

anyway wat are the new update in my life?.....sigh, haven been blogging for so super long until i really dun know where to start with... maybe i'll start from the day i enter my working life?
i'm now working in "new water" place (dun know if can say out the company not) then during my first week of work,i almost killed myself!!! sigh, cos my supervisor really thought i'm a genius then ask me to do some mechanical sketching of a module which is still not out in the market.Only given a few word documments and 3 pictures, i have to come out with the whole appearance of the module and also find out how this thing is made!! SianZ what a nice and challenging job for my first day of work!!so after much discussion with the technicians and also my supervisor,i finally came up with the whole new module.so yupZ i'm left with sketching it le, bt damn! the company doesnt provide me with any computer aided programme to do my mechical drawing, sianZ so i have to go back to sch to do the drawings lor...tat's why sometime i'm in sch lah...anyway,i heard u pple start sch liao right?next time lets have a meeting in sch leh!!! heehee going to sch is not much ofa complient lah, , cos i can just take my time to go to school.... as long as i finish my job on that day. that means,i can actually go to sch at 10am instead of 8.30 to my workplace!!! wahahah......

so other than doing this mechanical drawing,i'm also doing some lab experiment.... bascially,i'm just asked to take down the readings for every ten mins and during my time in the lab,my additional job is to entertain all the indian technicians!!! sianZZZ cos they are always in the lab room just talk and chat with them all the time lor. hahah~~ btw,to all my racist friends, the indians are really brillant pple!!! most of them either got their diploma or degree cert in indian before coming to singapore and work as a mere technician!!! and most of them i tok to,are really super clever and hardworking.... quite pity them actually.... =(

okie,guess i'm done with my job scope, heehee regarding my working environment,its really PURE heaven!!!! wahahah there are a totally of 8 other students like me from ntu and we are all allocated to seat together in a small office!!! heehee so sometime we can even watch vcds or dvds when we have nothing to do during working hours and no one will know about it other then the students lor!!!!wahahaa cool right?and well,my supervisor is also quite a fun loving person,i can tok crap with him all the time and he is TOTALLY not offended!!! heehee maybe cos he is young ba, ard his late 20s only.

hmmmmm other than working,i'm preoccupied with huiwen(guess only ash know who she is,she's not attached lah,but she's going norway soon so pls stop asking me to intro ya k?heehee) and other friends ba,sigh, love is so complicated, sianZZZZ for this,i doubt i'll elaborate cos its actually other pple's life. :)
anyway i went to watch firework near esplanade yesterday!!! its really super nice!! heard there will gonna be more of this, u pple better go and watch too!!! okie gonna end now, will try to update more regularly!! heeehee

hey dude@@@ lol,time for some short updates :) Ummmm today is first of jan and guess what happened?my cousin asked me out cos he wanna arrange a match make for me and his friend@@.. damn,what a day to start my new year when he dun even take the big "N" "O" for an answer@@@ bt sigh,i'm still trying to reject it so ya,wish me luck@ :(

anyway learnt alot tis school holiday@. haha first,i learnt to bake cookies@ cool isn't it?heehee and at the same time,i also learnt that we should not play or mess around with the recipe else the product will turn out to be the cookie i made,together with ash, hard and too sweet..... sad :( nvm,by experimenting,we are also learning so ashley, let's have another go with the cookie making again@@@ *guys, u'll be so lucky to taste it* :D another thing i learnt is how to play mahjong@ hahah its so damn fun@@ and i think i'll be princess of mahjong soon..heehee with just a wee bit more of practise...
ummm guess that's the end of what i've learnt....opps talk about learning,my exam results is out.....long ago actually and suprisingly,i didnt fail any subjs, lol, and even managed to get an average B@@@ so shocked cos it seems that i'm so much slacker in my school work tis sem, compared to last sem@@... sigh, nvm,i promise to work harder next year...... *fingers crossed.*

btw,for the taiwan trip,haven paid wj the money for the air tics@@@ hey dude,remind us when we meet again k? :) umm guess i better end now cos its getting pretty LATE....5am... lol.. ciao :)


MERRY CHRISTMAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR v(^_^)v

guess its time to do some small updates@@ sigh,can u see the difference between me,kh and ash now?lol...... anyway lets start with something lame...sigh, okie this is what happened today actually... during last year's christmas,i bought a gameboy advance sp for my dearest cousin.haha actually i'm not the one who fork out the money,its my auntie.i'm just assigned to go buy the present.so i bought the gameboy advance for like hundrd plus then tried to choose a game to come with it. since my cousins are just kind of not more then thirteen years old thus bought a 200 in 1 game cartidge which,obviously is pirated.... ya cos tat seller told me there is no difference between original and pirated games..bt in the end... sigh... haiZZ today,i saw my cousins then asked them what games they want for their coming christmas present..then they complainted to me that the previous game cannot be saved.... after some thoughts, then i realised that cos the game i bought is pirated thus they can't save it worst is,i told them in their face that i bought a PIRATED game for them....damn... how am i suppose to know that pirated gameboys games is not as popular and loved compared to pirated playstation games.... :( yupZ so i supposed u will have guessed....i embarrassed myself infront of my kid cousins.... :( sigh....................

okie another happening thing is regarding the taiwan trip bt i think since all of us know about it,so no point i writing it here now.... i'm realli looking forward to it bt...eh....my passport expired long ago liao leh..how ar?:P those whose passport expired liao can contact me?then we go renew it together...heehee

btw,i almost forgot to say this@@@ i'm so happy that chen liping got the top ten most popular actress award@@@ so happy for her...hahha i'm realli scare that she didnt get in..sigh... guess the "aiyoyo" charactor is making a super huge impression on me and others too..heehee i almost plan to call in to support her leh..wahahah :P

gonna finish exams soon...so sad...

lol,lots of pple may wonder,y feel sad?sigh,i also dun know...its good that exams is over and u can relax but when exams is over,u just feel that u lost ur aim in life liao...its like everything becomes normal.... ummm worst is that,i will recieve constant nagging from mum again and wun get the pampered treatment le :_( sianZZZZzz.... lol..dun kill me :P

anyway,for this year round,may not do well for e exams cos dun feel confident in any paper..... so scary...most of them are like scrap through one...dead..bt heck lah,as long as dun tabao okie leh....hahh guess this is wat most pple want anyway :P
btw,tabao means fail and have to retake the subj...

ummm regarding the pet thingy..now going through deep reconsideration....its like,i still cant find the breed of dog that best suite the house and i'm worried of leaving the puppy alone at home...my cousin denial recently bought a puppy@@ and guess wat is the breed...its a shih tzu@@ haha so cool...i'm hoping to see the puppy this christmas,cos gonna go to his house for a party :) anyway,mum seems to see me in a new light le,good news@@@ cos i told her lots about how to take care of a puppy and i also told her tat i'm going through a deep consideration regarding having one...and i think i appeared to be mature enough to take care of a pup.heehee hope this works... :P