hey peeps,


its 6.30 in the morning and someohow i have this urge to pour all my feelings into this blog.can't really get much sleep tonight....dun know why leh,izzit because of the rain at night?which sort of chills me?anyway,wen has left for norway le.sigh, so sad..... maybe its because of the constant meetings and phone chating sessions we had during these 2 months,that's why i have this sense of lost. its like there is always something which constantly make u so damn busy and u r always trying so damn hard to make time for it and then, it just disappeared.... so feel abit lost ba. (opps,did i make it sound like a chore?heehee) well,i dun know leh.... just feel a change ba. Anyway,this is something i predicted so damn long ago lor cos somehow all my chit chat mates are gone. like shenloong, wen, and ym (more of sms mate). heehee sounds like very little hor, but somehow these pple always fill my life leh..... for wen,she always keeps me damn busy with her constant enthusiasm for shopping!!!and sometimes by giving her advice and stuff. And always bugging me to go clubbing!!! for shenloong,sigh, he is always giving me a listening ear. for ym, her constant smsing and other problems she met in her life ba.....

Sometimes,i just feel i'm too immature... after going for IA and knowing everyone is going overseas,i just feel so sad. i can't help by feeling that i'm a runner in a race but i'm just looking at the people who are either running ahead of me or running pass me. this is not jealousy or anything or that sort, just that i finally realised there is this need to grow up, to gain more knowledge, to be more independent and get out of my confort zone...... lol..... this is wat i always tell wen, she is always my eyes and ears, she always come back with so many interesting stuff from overseas and share them with me. Something which thrills me even more is that she will even bring back those little but yet meaningful stuff and share them with me. isn't this sweet? thanxs pal~

Anyway,just a piece of something, why does people always question and go for the "me" word?its like whenever people met with stuff, they will say, why does people treat "ME" this way and get angry? why can't people just think in other people's shoes before reacting?Seriously,i met with this problems too and is usually pissed by myself. maybe its just idealistic for humans to think for others first ba. but i feel that it just make someone an angry person to always think of the "me" word..... :)
btw,i realised a talent i have, that is, i can just forget about sad stuff easily.some people may say this is just a ostrict way of doing things but for me,i feel that its the trick to stay happy in life...wahaahah

i wrote a damn depressing poem before wen leave,....dun know why,just got this urge to write it when i'm taking the mrt to work tat day.... wow~~~ i regret giving her though...cos i really think its a quite sad poem and i scare it'll make her feel even more depressed.... sigh, but anyway,i send it liao,so hope she can interpret the last para and know that i'm trying real hard to turn the poem into something happier.....heehee


Sadness drowns the soul.
should i ever let go?
To try loosen the hold.
and let change run its lawn.

An unwilling grip extends its hand,
as selfishness seize the air,
can you not go?
a thoughtless scream echoed,
making itself known.

A big long pause awaits,
as time roar its way.
minutes tick in speed,
suddenly visible you appeared to me,
back in peace
with a big smile full of teeth!

change is inevitable,
as it always is,
keep me close,
after the day you leave,
come back in peace,
which you must make it be.
bringing back the silly smile,
and the big white teeth!



quite a short one actually,haven thought of the title yet..... =)