umm doubt anyone will read this bt i just put up for fun.its a new poem i wrote.well,few weeks ago actualli :P


Amnesias


Strolling down the street,
As autumn leaves fall,
A faint memory I seek,
I tried to recall.
Blank is all I see,
No matter how I plead.
I guess that we are never,
Never as close kins


Filled with regrets,
I tried to look back
The times we missed
But unavailing it seemed.
Have I forgotten you?
I do not even know
For the answer so obscure
It appeared in my dream.


I dreamed of a little girl
Who is so feverish in sleep.
Crying in agony
For she yearns relieve
A pair of callous hands
Touches her small cheeks
Frighten is he ever
For his daughter is in need


Another picture I see
As playful as she seems
Demanding and pleas
Hoping her tantrum lets her win.
Over his shoulders
He let her be
Make her feel
Like a princess he sees.


Waking up as small birds chirp,
I open my eyes
Smiled in relief
Grief is never,
A memory I keep
Only happy ones,
Hidden deep within me.


Some people may wonder,
Why the amnesia?
I guess and firmly believe
The answer is just this
In the cruel reality
A sense of lose when u see no kin
So why should we remember?
When it only results a sniff

wahah,lately i'm so bored.sigh,it seems tat after my intersem,there is nothing much there is needed to be done so i sort of rot at home. :( maybe its cos i didnt try to find a job,wahah or u can say i dun intent to.sianZZ..anyway,nw i feel sick,not sick in the mind hor,bt i feel feverish.guess its because i ate too much durian chip which my bro brought from thailand.haha he is so COOL@@ bought me a new bag back..heehee although i'm the one that requested for it :P its a bright blue bag pack,abit boyish bt its still nice,heehee a new bag with a new beginning in sch@@ so super cool :)

anyway where am i?oh ya,i think i'm sick so later gonna eat painkiller...sigh,dun know i should thanx my bro for buying them or curse him... :( sigh,nothing much to update though so i guess i'll end here.

sigh,dun know y,i just feel that life is so meaning less...sianZZZ....issit because i'm feeling sian right now?sigh,well first of all, ym may complaint that i didnt reply her call or msg or wat so ever,well reason is i also dun know how to face her or tok to her cos heehee mayb cos i fail my driving lah then she sort of always reminds me of my driving so i try nt to tok to her.sianZ i abit bad hor?bt i just cant bring myself leh.heehee u SEE,how this failing of driving has made me.this driving test has made me feel like a total and complete failure.cos i used to think that i'm okie with driving or i can say,i always think that i'm good.then dun know is it cos i ate painkiller before exam or wat (ate painkiller cos i got my period,first days somemore) i just do all that stuff that i never did before,like hit poles and kerbs all that.sianZZ the most ultimate insult is that the tester onli let me drive for a short while on the road,its like he knows i'm gonna fail and dun wanna waste time on me,kaoZ so sianZZZ

okie,lets forget about the driving,here comes my register of timetable and subjs.sigh,first of all,i didnt get 2 of my impt core subjs cos i'm abit slow in registering.kaoZZ and the funny thing is that,i'm just late for like 3 or 4 mins@@@ this sem hor,everyone seems v kiasu leh,sian....then worst heehee u know y am i late?hahah u will sure laugh one lor......cos i got stomache then i wanna go toliet....kaoZZZZZ...WAHHHAHAHA then pple ask me y u late,i also dun dare to tell them the truth leh.sigh.....

then another sian thing is that i got another student le.this one hor,i'm abit relunctant to teach cos i feel that teaching is v stress then worst is tat the student is also having her O levels....kaoZZ i win liao,y my students all having O level exam tis yr?sianZZZ then i also scare next sem i may nt b able to cope with all that......sigh......

wow,its like 8 in the morning and i'm still AWAKE@@@ lol,yes,i haven sleep through out the night and i still have to go for my driving at ten later.gosh@@@ i seriously blame the coffee i drank in the afternoon :P sigh,it makes me so alert that i doesn't seems to fall asleep...or maybe its cos of the poems i just composed.haha so excited.Dun know y. before i go to sleep,i suddenly got some inspiration to write a poem and so got up to write.hahah this is cool,add to my collection of poems.... :)

umm.....lately nothing much happen leh,oh ya,went to east coast park on sat for an outing with my hallmates.at first,or i can say i'm totally unwilling all along cos my closer buddies are in france mah then although the others r close to me too bt its like i didnt see them for a long while le so scare i'll feel awkward.sigh,haha bt luckily everything turns out fine and we still carry on talk lots of crap :) so its super cool@@@@

sigh,i dun know i should just go take a one hour nape now or continue to stay awake until i go for driving....sian.... oh ya,exams is ard the corner le,2 more days to be exact......sian to the max ar,and i just started studying like two,three hours ago...damn...never mind,i must remember kh's words...hahah its the attitude u choose so i feel that i can make it for the test so i sure will be able to finish the topics soon@@@ :P

my brother move to his new house le...did i said that before?haha cant remember...sigh,ya now he is gone le,and he has moved most of his stuff to his new house liao.he house is v nice actually cos he employed a designer to help him design the house.well bt he also did contribute much to other decorations lah. so have to give him credit for that too :) sigh,since bro moved out....the house seems abit less noise...well bt overall,its still the same :P

i got into mechanical engineering in the end,sigh,dun know is it good or bad cos i heard from my senior i STILL need to choose my stream AGAIN.. this is craZy.i thought the whole decision making is over le leh........:(
okie i wanna go see tv le bb :)