hey peeps,


its 6.30 in the morning and someohow i have this urge to pour all my feelings into this blog.can't really get much sleep tonight....dun know why leh,izzit because of the rain at night?which sort of chills me?anyway,wen has left for norway le.sigh, so sad..... maybe its because of the constant meetings and phone chating sessions we had during these 2 months,that's why i have this sense of lost. its like there is always something which constantly make u so damn busy and u r always trying so damn hard to make time for it and then, it just disappeared.... so feel abit lost ba. (opps,did i make it sound like a chore?heehee) well,i dun know leh.... just feel a change ba. Anyway,this is something i predicted so damn long ago lor cos somehow all my chit chat mates are gone. like shenloong, wen, and ym (more of sms mate). heehee sounds like very little hor, but somehow these pple always fill my life leh..... for wen,she always keeps me damn busy with her constant enthusiasm for shopping!!!and sometimes by giving her advice and stuff. And always bugging me to go clubbing!!! for shenloong,sigh, he is always giving me a listening ear. for ym, her constant smsing and other problems she met in her life ba.....

Sometimes,i just feel i'm too immature... after going for IA and knowing everyone is going overseas,i just feel so sad. i can't help by feeling that i'm a runner in a race but i'm just looking at the people who are either running ahead of me or running pass me. this is not jealousy or anything or that sort, just that i finally realised there is this need to grow up, to gain more knowledge, to be more independent and get out of my confort zone...... lol..... this is wat i always tell wen, she is always my eyes and ears, she always come back with so many interesting stuff from overseas and share them with me. Something which thrills me even more is that she will even bring back those little but yet meaningful stuff and share them with me. isn't this sweet? thanxs pal~

Anyway,just a piece of something, why does people always question and go for the "me" word?its like whenever people met with stuff, they will say, why does people treat "ME" this way and get angry? why can't people just think in other people's shoes before reacting?Seriously,i met with this problems too and is usually pissed by myself. maybe its just idealistic for humans to think for others first ba. but i feel that it just make someone an angry person to always think of the "me" word..... :)
btw,i realised a talent i have, that is, i can just forget about sad stuff easily.some people may say this is just a ostrict way of doing things but for me,i feel that its the trick to stay happy in life...wahaahah

i wrote a damn depressing poem before wen leave,....dun know why,just got this urge to write it when i'm taking the mrt to work tat day.... wow~~~ i regret giving her though...cos i really think its a quite sad poem and i scare it'll make her feel even more depressed.... sigh, but anyway,i send it liao,so hope she can interpret the last para and know that i'm trying real hard to turn the poem into something happier.....heehee


Sadness drowns the soul.
should i ever let go?
To try loosen the hold.
and let change run its lawn.

An unwilling grip extends its hand,
as selfishness seize the air,
can you not go?
a thoughtless scream echoed,
making itself known.

A big long pause awaits,
as time roar its way.
minutes tick in speed,
suddenly visible you appeared to me,
back in peace
with a big smile full of teeth!

change is inevitable,
as it always is,
keep me close,
after the day you leave,
come back in peace,
which you must make it be.
bringing back the silly smile,
and the big white teeth!



quite a short one actually,haven thought of the title yet..... =)

hey peeps!!!

damn!!! i just saw all the floodings in my tag box!!!sigh,sorry lah,just that i have out grown all the blogging thingy.... heehee

anyway wat are the new update in my life?.....sigh, haven been blogging for so super long until i really dun know where to start with... maybe i'll start from the day i enter my working life?
i'm now working in "new water" place (dun know if can say out the company not) then during my first week of work,i almost killed myself!!! sigh, cos my supervisor really thought i'm a genius then ask me to do some mechanical sketching of a module which is still not out in the market.Only given a few word documments and 3 pictures, i have to come out with the whole appearance of the module and also find out how this thing is made!! SianZ what a nice and challenging job for my first day of work!!so after much discussion with the technicians and also my supervisor,i finally came up with the whole new module.so yupZ i'm left with sketching it le, bt damn! the company doesnt provide me with any computer aided programme to do my mechical drawing, sianZ so i have to go back to sch to do the drawings lor...tat's why sometime i'm in sch lah...anyway,i heard u pple start sch liao right?next time lets have a meeting in sch leh!!! heehee going to sch is not much ofa complient lah, , cos i can just take my time to go to school.... as long as i finish my job on that day. that means,i can actually go to sch at 10am instead of 8.30 to my workplace!!! wahahah......

so other than doing this mechanical drawing,i'm also doing some lab experiment.... bascially,i'm just asked to take down the readings for every ten mins and during my time in the lab,my additional job is to entertain all the indian technicians!!! sianZZZ cos they are always in the lab room just talk and chat with them all the time lor. hahah~~ btw,to all my racist friends, the indians are really brillant pple!!! most of them either got their diploma or degree cert in indian before coming to singapore and work as a mere technician!!! and most of them i tok to,are really super clever and hardworking.... quite pity them actually.... =(

okie,guess i'm done with my job scope, heehee regarding my working environment,its really PURE heaven!!!! wahahah there are a totally of 8 other students like me from ntu and we are all allocated to seat together in a small office!!! heehee so sometime we can even watch vcds or dvds when we have nothing to do during working hours and no one will know about it other then the students lor!!!!wahahaa cool right?and well,my supervisor is also quite a fun loving person,i can tok crap with him all the time and he is TOTALLY not offended!!! heehee maybe cos he is young ba, ard his late 20s only.

hmmmmm other than working,i'm preoccupied with huiwen(guess only ash know who she is,she's not attached lah,but she's going norway soon so pls stop asking me to intro ya k?heehee) and other friends ba,sigh, love is so complicated, sianZZZZ for this,i doubt i'll elaborate cos its actually other pple's life. :)
anyway i went to watch firework near esplanade yesterday!!! its really super nice!! heard there will gonna be more of this, u pple better go and watch too!!! okie gonna end now, will try to update more regularly!! heeehee