dear bloggie~~

"what should i do?i'm really confused..i dun know what to do"...these are the words i have,through out these days...i know someone who needs blood A+,which is what i have and i'm prepared to donate it nw...actually i think its donating blood platelets cos that patient is having leukaemia...anyway,i heard (from bro) that the blood platelets donation is more painful compared to blood donating...sigh~its not that i dun wanna donate but the fear is there...
since young,i have developed a fear towards needles.well,i wun say its uncommon cos most people are afraid bt well,i have an extreme reaction towards it.when having injection,i'll try to distract myself by scolding someone...(heehee usualli the doc) sometimes..including vulgarities.. :P Thus,when it comes to donating blood,i have my reservations.

well,dun get me wrong here,i seriously wanna donate and i never gave myself a single thought of backing out now....actualli i never realli decided on donating until i discuessed it with a friend of mine.We are discuessing whether to donate or not and i'm on the pro donating side,as i said my points,i suddenly feel that,ya,i should donate....the thing that made me do it is the part whereby i have been through that kinda situation before,the time when a family member is in terminal illness and desprate for help.Thus,with that,its a good-enough reason to help...

i'll NEVER blame those that wouldn't because if u put urself in their shoes,its still hard to do it.First- i dun know the person i'm donating..its like giving a blood donation.if its you,will you do a blood donation immediately?Second- the pain of donating,its not easy to overcome that phobia+its worsen if u r a first timer (most prob will be or u wun even ponder) thirdly-its tedious...(i guess) well...heehee actually these are MY reason for not donating :P

btw,of all the people i know,only 3 r available,me,my bro and W (ym's froend) but all of them,excluding me,can't make it.sigh~ my bro went sailing and W just took some medication thus can't donate for a period of time.SO, i'm totally "alone" here, which makes the fear doubled... :_(
thus guys,if u wanna come for some moral support,its gladly welcomed... :) bye bye~

ps:sad to say bt...i feel pressured by external factors too..ass holes~~:P.