well.haha wat should i say?nothing much changed actually,ya know,the same old me.maybe a change in hairstyle?lol.ya....ya know...something just makes me ponder for quite something.actually i didnt really think much abt it bt ya,will my mum wanna remarried?i guess its selfishness,bt i hope this will never happen....that's y i always hope mum will go granny's house and.ya know.keep her occupied and stuff....sigh....is that evil?i remembered dad once asked me,"if i'm gone,will u allow ur mum to remarried?".At that moment,my answer is yes,sigh....i'm such an ass,when u r not in the situation,u will never know......yupZ now i v sian.
actually,dun tok abt it lah.let nature take its course ba,bt i still hope nothing ever change... :)

Sorry to say,bt i usually dun know how to console people,ya know,its like if its not really something to b sad abt...like ym,actually i'm quite pissed.ya know its like,u dun treasure what u have then cry over something that is losted by someone else.wat is this?When discussing abt life and death,i'm sensitive to it and wun wanna tok much.ya,u may think hey,this is running away from problems.Bt pal,there is never any antidote for sadness,especially to someone who is gone..because problem will never be resolved,problems will be left unsolved.It relay on u urself to deal with the problem.Either to forget or to ignore.Me,i choose to ignore.Of course the pain of lost will lessen,bt its always there.

shit,i haven go pass money to someone...sigh...sianZZZZ

Am i just too sensitive?


Sensitivity,haha it usually don't apply to me much bt now,i begin to think that i'm easily annoyed.okie,bt the good think is,when i'm pissed its easily forgotten.Have you even been talked behind the back?i never liked it cos i usually never discusses stuff abt a friend unless its something good or its some behaviour that pissed me off.Lately,i realise that some people are talking behind my back and this really makes me feel abit sianZ.its like hey,if u dun like how i dress,just tell me on the face,by discussing with some other friends wun help me right?i just dun understand.there is once i remember when i'm in secondary school, sec one. There is a group of gals toking abt another friends' body shape.like example,this part of her is too fat etc, its okie if its someone u dun know bt hey,the person they are tokin abt is actualli one of their gang@@@. Issit this sad?i believe gossiping behind someones' back is unintentional bt ya,if u do count him or her as ur close pal.it really will hurt the other party,expecially this stuff u complaint abt are sensitive issues like appearance and all that.

well enough of complaining,i hope to forgot this after i finish typing tat cos its actually the second time since i heard pple toking behind my back.Sian ar@@@@ Ok,let me think if there is anything fun to talk abt......oh ya,i had a super scary dream this morning@@@ its really scary cos the setting is in the hostel then its abt ghost and all that...pretty lame too hahah bt scary enough that i forced a friend to accompany me to the toliet to brush my teeth@@@. i have a confession to make too cos i'm feeling super gulity now...i plucked some wild flowers when i'm on my way back to hall.its really bad of me cos ya,u r killin the flowers then also selfishly take it away from the public+the one who planted it must be heart broken.....i'm ashamed of myself@@ ... :(

okie,gonna go now.nitX

okie this is super sian@@@ ...y my surrounding friends are so weird@@@ especially close ones or thoses that i have to hangout with regularly...(excluding secondary sch friends..u knw who) kaoZ,first is ym then now is wen.......okie i guess most of u know abt ym liao so its no point that i keep complaining abt her.ya bt wen is really something...she really got seriously attitude problem...okie,its not really serious lah..its really like those typical rgs gals ya know,they just do their own stuff....abit wo xing wo shu.....dun really care about how people feel.Sometimes its really super tiring hanging out with her,its like she gets pissed and angry easily and SERIOUSLY,u wun have a clue of y is she angry@@@

Today,both me and wen went for acapella practise at abt 8pm.At first her mood is still okey bt then dun know y,after some time,she get pissed le,then when she's pissed,she treats everyone as her enemy,including me@@@@... she just walk off without tellin me then like lian chou chou.....
sian ar....now i also dun know wat to tell her le....btw,i swear,it cant be my fault cos i really didnt do anything to her lor...okie,maybe its the part where i corrected her pitching...bt i think this is really a small matter,how come angry???????so cannot be lah........sianZZZ
i super tired le,i wanna find yuxia,the more gentle and friendlier friend.yesh@ i'll hang out with her more often then try to distance myself with the weird weird kinds....... :P
okie lah,seriously,they are not tat bad...bt u really must have patients to deal with them lor....damn,,, okie,i cursed again....

anyway,lets say some fun stuff,lately this semester,i have been seeing ash real often.its like see her almost every single day@@@ bt i realise that ym is tryin to get close to her.so ya,u know my character,i'll never try to snatch a friend from anyone.if ym wanna chat with ash,i'll distance myself then tok to another friend instead :P cool right?heehee bt it seems that ash,u r taking my place....sooner or later...HAHAHAHA

oh ya,totally forgot to talk abt the play organised by my hostel.heehee i have been forcing all my friends (some actualli and u knw who u r) to watch the play cos..........................I'M IN IT.heehee okie,i'm not playing a big part at all...heehee actalli i'm actualli a nobody who will act like for less than 5 mins then with no lines...:P well bt the cool part is that i will be courted by the male lead...he will sort of try to ask me out then i have to act uninterested......lame right?heehee i know..bt i dun care,guy,u still have to come and watch me cos there will never be a second time where by u see me standing one the esplanade's stage lor... :P anyway,i MUST and HAVE to say this....u guys must remember to bring flowers k.i dun mind its just a single stalk...hehee okie lah....maybe i shouldnt force u all....okie,it depends on u,if u wanna buy,u buy bt if u dun,its okie.....bt ofcourse,u MAKE SURE u choose ur choice PROPERLY.... :P

sigh.....i hate my hair and i wanna cut it real real real short this time.@@@@@ damn.so irritating.having long hair is so ma fan.need to keep it nice,tidy and managable...sian ar@@@ :(
sigh....

anyway,a brand new year means a change in new attitudes.heehee this few days,i really change my dress code leh.last time i always wear until like shit.now i wear until like going orchard like that..hehee okie actually i'm getting sick of this dress code le then feel like going back to the old dress code bt its so paiseh to like wear pretty pretty on first two days then wear like shit on the third and rest of the year@@@ so sianZZZZ.....okie,i'm just whining..... :P anyway also start studying today,gosh@ i love life science@@ heehee although there are lots of difficult terms in the notes bt now i even bother to go internet to find out the definition and look out for more info abt it.cool right?hahha i'm surprised by myself too@@@ heehee so ya,gonna end now le cos i wanna finish my last two page of lecture notes and i'm done@@ yuppie. give nu li de hai zi yi ke zhang sheng ba@@ :P

yuppie!!!today i went to see phamton of the opera!!I have longed to see that show for years!since i was a little gal.Well that show is quite sad actually cos i really pity the phamton...not to spoil the fun of watching the movie,i wun say anything abt the plot bt i'll say those who love to watch classical music stuff will love this :) i mean really,i love the music..... :) gonna borrow the cd from wen some day. opps~ i bought a new lip gross!!!well its my first lip gross actually heehee wanna wear it every single day!! :P love it love it love it!!!!! bleah~