wow,serioualy,it has been a super long time since i write on my blog.okie,life this week is pretty normal...except 1) accompanied mum go clinlic 2)went to give tution 3)watch movie 4)when china black

When to hospital on monday,that day is super dao mei ar!cos i have to walk ard with my new hairstyle(ugly) sigh..The day before,i when to cut hair...sigh...the hair dresser is really something...i told her i wanna cut a bit of fringe so that it will be side parting..bt it seems that she got the wrong idea...she gave me a total new hair style!!sigh..guess i have to keep pinning up my hair for quite a while....okie,back to the hospital thingy.all the happenings in the hospital can summarise to just one word....WAITING.we spend like 4 hours waiting for our turn to come and the report to be finalised.The report is as expected.so mum will have an operation soon.next week.okie,that means i'll have to go home everyday to take care of her le.....sigh...i wonder if i can do a good job...luckily amy knows wat to do so i'll be consulting her like wat food to eat after operation and wat to do.Actually i'm not really mentally prepared for all this cos i think there will be lots to do like...cook food,prepare tonics,do the housework,help her in bathing,medication...sigh...i'm clueless...bt i'll surely learn :) wish me luck :)

okie forgot abt the unhappy stuff...so after the check up in kk hospital,i have to go for tution!!wow,i'm extremely excited!!scared to dead actually..kudos to alvin(ntu),hahah he is the best!!he's like my driver for tat day.ya,phew lucky i bought him the wrist guard thus i dun feel that paiseh. :) okie,the tution kid is quite okie,his attitude in learning is good.not lazy or anything.heehee lucky i did some preparation before the tution else i'll be dead cos he requested for me to go through the topics with him....The tution session if quite alright,although i did some blunders myself..taught some wrong stuff...and he corrected me. :P heehee bt i hope this is a good beginning... :) btw,i never realise that giving tution is so shack!when i reach him,i'm so tired that i sleep at 12 am!!! looking forward for the next tution...hope my teaching helps him in his coming CA...opps...btw,ash,we realli come across the word bauxite!!!!hahah

Yesterday when to chinablack.sigh,nothing to talk abt actually...well i wun say its not fun...quite fun actualli bt when it starts to be fun,ym got problem again.sigh..think she cannot go clubing cos she cant stand the lightings.When we are dancing,ym is like gonna faint soon so ya,dance for just 1 hr then we have to go le...sigh.... :( ohya,chinablack is really small,smaller than Zouk so ya,not really that onZ.........

well,okie,now i'm in a clear mind now.never know that i'm a crying baby.dun know y,tears just row freely,haha guess i'm born to become an actress?okie,i dun know how to begin with this.actually things doesnt seems to be that bad,when i heard that mum may get this firboids(some tumor) i immediately when checking abt it and find that its actually benign and its common for females to get it.i dun know wat to say,to tell u that i'm relief,its just a lye,i'm still worried.its like i believe i'm realli close to mum and to know that she need to go through an operation just makes my heart ache.sigh...i also dun know wat to say,i'll treat everything as normal as i dun wanna make my mum worried.i'll be accompaning her to the hospital on monday for a detailed check up.In the mean time,i believe i have to be strong,to be the pillar there for her.

damn,i have 2 tests tmr and i haven read a single bit.....sigh....wat eva,anyway,i'm realli fine

To the big and mighty,

Are u playing tricks on me again?are u????if i have ever offended you,i apologise.i really do.I'm sick and tired of the games you play.is that wat u call adding colours to our life?please plase...........just let me have peace.ya know.dun always try to find something to let me worry,to feel sad about.Don't hurt anyone that is closest to me.pls,i beg u.y does it have to be that again.let history repeat its self?u have taken so many of my loved ones and left me with only 3.Then now do u plan to take alway the only happiness in my life?The only love i have now.i always know that i'm the luckiest gal ever,i feel so loved and cared for.i know and appreciated that bt please,let this be a hoax.let this be just a small trick u play.let me keep the last loved kin with me.please.

ps:mum,i love u to bits.

okie,the whole hexis production is finally over!!!!phew~~ heehee now made some new friends and ya have a hell lot of fun with all the crew people =) Anyway since most of my friends go to see the production,i wun mention much abt it here. =) oh ya,something really surprised me!!! i have a friend name kw,he shocked me by apologising,saying he's sorry for being quiet the whole time....reason cos he is sick lah.so i'm touche that at least he come....heehee or issit that he bought the tics liao so must go?hahaha

I'm quite sick right now.got sore throat+flu....i got a very bad feeling that i'll become real sick this week...damn...and yet,CHINESE NEW YEAR is around the corner!!!sob~~(i better drink more water**)

This week,i finially found out something that has been bothering me.its last for like a good amount of years already.ya.its quite sad that its not a happy news bt at least i found out the truth and can get on with my life.now i just wanna forgot abt it and u know,totally forget about it.Maybe i can find some inspiration for a new poem.....ya,maybe..............okie,cya again bloggie~

Oh ya,totally forgot to mention this.THANX SO MUCH FOR THE ROSES!!LOve it,Love it,LOVE IT!!The pink roses is really sweet.LiangZ,ash,ya r the best!!!! *muckZ* heehee btw,ehh......maybe u can go sue the flower shop cos the rose start to wither le...so sad....i plan to bring it back to hall bt guess i cant...sigh~~ :)

lol,com'on,i'm just making some silly jokes....heehee anyway i'm so stress now....feel abit misfit...cos i'm actualli only a subcast in the hexis production then i only know like few people around....sianZZ feel so lonely when shuting,my close friend there,is behind the curtains,playing her part.......do i have a unlikeable look?sianZZ it seems that lately,i dun feel like mixing ard much... :P

okie,just wanna come here to remind u guys that the play starts on sat.at 8pm but CANNOT be late cos its the esplanade....most prob they wun let u in if u r late......ummm i'll leave the tics to ash so ya,all guys pls try to contact ash...then also bring your 15 bucks along hor....heehee
btw,a small hint.....i like yellow,white,red or pink...heehee opps!!!practically all colours!!!!!!!! heehee get the draft?................ney,kidding lah :)

expecto patrolem@@@@@@@@@@@@@
evil dementors GO AWAY@@@@@@@@@@@@@
GO AWAY..............................................................................
never never never never never never never never,hate u all,hate u hate u hate u hate u hate u @@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@
pui pui pui pui pui pui@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@
phew...