The flaw which u never know u have.....

i feel so miserable.damn.....i just made a group of friends pissed i guess.its not that i wanna backed out on the outing bt i just feel there is too many things to do this few weeks@ i'm really a person that is ultra layback and i love to just rest or even just sleep at home.going out and have fun everyday is really not the thing for me man.Maybe due to my layback attitude,i tend to not take things seriously and back out on an outing when ever i want.am i really hurting anyone during these process?well i know that my hall friends are pissed now...bt not sure of my other pals.dun ask me y i said yes to the outing in the first place cos i also dun know,in that moment of time,i always think that i'm TOTALLY free and in CONTROL@@@ then when that day is near,everything seems to pop up....shit...now i feel so guilty.sianZ

Maybe i really need to plan my time properly or try to reject a meetings if i can't confirm...man...this sux.i don't know to ask who to give me advice on tis without geting a lecture or a phrase like "i told u so" or " now then u know"....

Actualli its ym that is pissed with me lah bt some how,heehee i dun realli care.....heehee evil right?But i know that tis is really a flaw of mine,time management.i'm always lectured by mum that i have poor time management bt i always dun believe....well now i think i have to seriously look into it......sob...

Happy Events for this month
- met shena,my neighboor yesterday and chit chat.(sweet)
- got a earring from wen,gimme as a lucky charm cos hear abt the pact between me and ash
-ym bought me a anklet for christmas
-bought a letter pad
-drink my first champane
-go bukit timah climb mountain,see lots of small animals...bt yet to see a snake@@ :P (imagine the horror face from kh@@)
-gonna meet ash to do some cookin+watch movie(yuppie,later actualli)
-best ever@ read lots of comics.heehee now i'm a comic freak)

Unhappy Events this month
-quarrel with ym (sian,pissed with me all the time *roll my eyes*)
-tabao one subj which i totalli blame my class quizzs
-lost my handphone
-go for a dating session with cousin,which turn out talk to cousin more (holy crap)
-laptop keyboard spoil so cannot use exclaimation mark thus change to '@' instead.shock?heehee.
-cant remember le,cos i usualli dun remember unhappy stuff so ya,keep this list short@heehee

Wish List (change the inside)
-have better time management
-dun wanna meet ym too often (after 6 months,heehee so no quarrels)
-wanna go clubbing one day with cl or maybe kh...cos wanna c them dance.....(can laugh till die lor,heehee)
-smile more cos now i'm not smiling....
-find someone i like in sch so can look forward to lessons everyday then wun be late anymore@@ heehee

at least this is the end of the list,for now.okie,meeting ash soon later.bb :)