Xing Fu De Xiao Hai

Tomorrow,mum will be emitted to the hospital then on friday,she will be having her operation.Man am i worried.To say that every thing is okie and nothing to be worried about.well,that is a complete bullshit.Its not that i'm worried that this is a dangerous operation or anything.I know this is a small operation bt i'm still worried.i dun know how to ease my mum's pain.I hope to be her pillar of strength bt come'on,who r u kidding?Some time i feel useless...this is just how i feel when dad and grandma is in the hospital.I just don't know how or wat to do.i just feel like a kid.Not grown up yet.Dun know wat to say or how to say.I know that mum is always a strong woman.She is capable and she leave all the worries to herself.I know that she must be worried abt the operation.Com'on,who wun?who wun be scare of pain and all that?But being her,even if she is scared,she wun review it.she will keep it to herself....especially not infront of her children.Now in this point of time.I really hope that dad is still around to share her burden,her worries.i dun know wat i can do.i think i'll just stay there with her.......She kept asking me not to go to the hospital bt hahah deep inside,i know she want me to be there cos when i told her i'm going,she didnt reject the offer.

These week,i'm always at home.After my lesson,i'll go home straight away instead of staying in the hostel.i know that she know y i come home cos she always offer to fetch me to school.Actually i can say that i'm a v v v lucky gal.Com'on,which mom will always wake up earlier than u to prepare u breakfast?To always try to cook something to ur liking?who will always offer to send u to school in the early morning and even though the distance is so long.Whom will alwayd cook supper for u when u are studying or when u are hungry....i'm not saying that other mum not the same bt i just feel that my mum is special.I love to act as a spoiled brat.hahah like a zhang bu da de xiao hai, whereby mummy needs to take good care of me every now and then :)

i just wanna write this down to remind myself how wonderful my mum is.Ya know,sometimes,when u r angry,u tend to forget about the person's good and be angry at him or her.Sometimes,when one grows up,they tend to forget abt how great their parents are and mistreat them.i dun want this to happen although i doubt so.......Thus,i wanna write this down to remind myself :) If ever my mum see this blog, i wanna tell her to give all her worries to me.To trust me and to be rest assured that i'll be there for her all the way.yupZ and i love her too. Don't think she will see this bt i think she already knew :)